… that is my question.
I’ve been fretting about the blog for a little while now. Last night, chatting to a friend, I spoke about how I don’t feel I give it enough time anymore. Yesterday morning, someone asked how many people read it. Last weekend, I confided in a friend that I worry people might misunderstand some of what I write about here. And over the last two weeks, several people have asked if I am “ok”. They had read recent posts and worried. Which, for me, adds to the catalogue of confusion.
You see – I have been feeling insecure about it for a few weeks. In a “hovering-in-the-background” way. In a “can’t-quite-shake-the-feeling” way.
Is it too gloomy (or as a friend commented to my husband “more gloomy than usual”!)?
Is it egotistical online therapy – or does it serve a bigger purpose?
I started the blog to open up conversation – about failure. About daily, almost-mundane failures. And bigger, catastrophic ones too. I wanted to be able to talk about things-that-remain-taboo. To break the power of shame, silence and sorrow. Of disappointment.
But I worry that the blog no longer does this.
And whilst I love writing, and find it therapeutic too, I could go back to just writing a private journal. Rather than hanging it all out to dry on the online washing line.
So – what I would love to know, particularly from any of you who read regularly, is:
Which posts have you most liked/appreciated on the blog?
Which are less appealing? (I know that preferences are very personal, but I’d love to know)
Are there any that really turn you off?
How often do you read the blog?
Do you ever comment on posts? If not – is there a reason why? Would a more interactive set-up be a good thing?
Are there any specific issues/subjects you would like to see on here? Would you be interested in doing a “guest post”?
To blog or not to blog…
That is still the question.